-Finish reading “On Writing”
-Japanese Homework.
-Return shirt from Target
-Do SAT homework
I think overall, Summer 2010 has been good. Looking back, I don’t feel like I wasted much time at all. Honestly, it was probably even more busier than the school year, and I feel like I’ve just begun to get into the normal, lazy summer schedule.
But HEY. school’s just around the corner. In one week, I’m going to be going to sleep early probably, getting ready to wake up at 5:30 in the morning to catch the bus. hooray…!
God’s blessed me a lot this summer, through summer retreat, YI, VBS, CMI, Arizona, and then those little things in between like the middle school girl’s sleepover, ‘09 & ‘12 girls bonding times, and even tutoring with Alison. I really want to embrace a servant’s heart, and humble myself and become completely empty of my own desires.
I hate my desires. I hate wanting, yearning, seeking, but not feeling filled.
I WANT to be filled with God’s love, but it’s just so hard to stay on track when there’s so many distractions everywhere.
I feel like God’s really challenging me relationship-wise. No, not like “boyfriend/girlfriend” relationships, but friendships. I don’t know, I probably have to pray more about this, but I think lately it’s just been a really heavy subject in my mind.
I’m kinda scared about this upcoming year. I feel like there’s so much change in store, and the feeling of uncertainty nerves me like crazy a lot.
& It makes me mad, because I feel like I’m the only one putting in the effort.
This post turned out to be a bunch of random bits…HAHA.
